So I hung out with my gentleman today. He came over and when he walked in he had this handful of chocolate bars. And not just your every day chocolate bars, he had the expensive kind. He had four different flavors. He just looked at me and said, “I wasn’t sure which you liked best, so I bought a bunch of different ones.”. He brought me four expensive chocolate bars of all different sorts just for no reason at all. He said he just wanted to. :) It was so sweet. He’s not very vocal with his feelings for me, so this was just incredibly nice. We watched a movie, and every time one of us would re-adjust we’d move closer to one another. :) :) After that we went for a walk and just talked. It was so easy. He’s just so easy to be with and talk to. When we came back I played him a cover song called Sooner by Andrew Allen, only cause I was too nervous to play the song I wrote about him. He’s just so fantastic. I can’t even express how much I like him. He’s perfect in an imperfect kind of way. Lately he’s been hugging me differently too. Before, I’d put my arms below his because I’m shorter. But now he makes sure to get my arms around his neck so that we’re closer when we hug. :) It’s like I’m living the life I’ve dreamed of for so long, wrapping my arms around the man I never thought I’d have.
So I’ve decided that the only thing I can call my crush is a gentleman. He is the perfect gentleman. :) He’s kind and respectful and handsome, the list goes on. He holds the door for me EVERY time, and on our last date he even helped me with my jacket. :) It was so cute. I had my jacket hanging over my chair and when we went to leave I was standing beside my chair with my hand on top of my jacket. He then placed his hand right next to mine and picked up my jacket. He held it out for me and had the most adorable look on his face. :) :) He just makes me so happy! He’s so amazing. I think about him all the time. When we talk it’s just so easy! And the way he looks at me! I just want to kiss him! His eyes are absolutely amazing. They’re big and blue, and they’re filled with expression. I can’t really describe how amazing he is with words, but I can try. :)
So I went out with my crush again. I guess at this point we’re dating? I suppose that’s how it works, though we haven’t actually talked about what we are. This date was the first time we’ve gone out at night though. It was amazing :). We went to a concert of one of my favorite singers. I know the band so I introduced him to them before the show, and then we had an awesome time listening to the opening bands and critiquing them and talking about our lives. We can just talk so easily. :) I really like him. I wanted to hold his hand but I wasn’t sure how he’d feel about that since we’ve never held hands before :P. It seemed like he wanted to though, but every time it seemed like he was going to he just moved his hand somewhere else. He’s just so cute! Every time I looked at him he would smile this cute little smile at me. :) Sometimes I’d catch him looking at me from the corner of my eye. I just feel like this is something I’ve never really experienced before. Like I’ve dated people before, but I’ve never been with someone who steals glances at me, or just smiles at me for no reason. When we were talking before the bands started I said something along the lines of “I bet all the girls here are jealous, I’m pretty lucky you’re here with me” and then he just looked at me in shock and replied with, “No, I’m the lucky one. I’m here with a very good looking, very talented young lady.” It was so cute and gentleman like :). And when we were talking about my producer I told him about how someone had told my mom that my producer thinks “very highly” of me, and he said “Of course he would, you’re great” and the smile that went along with that was so adorable and irresistibly handsome. He’s so handsome. He’s so cute, and funny, and charming. :) I really like him. A lot.